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[ well it is sure a good thing that the lights are off because her face is heating up. ]

None of the boys were... enough when they started. Bruce never... gave you the chance. It wasn't fair. But--no, um, what I mean is... the work, what we do, it's... When it was you and me. It felt like... what you said. And... you made me better, too.

Edited 2019-05-04 06:34 (UTC)

Okay, good. Phew. Because I was- don't tell Tim, but if you felt that way about me it'd... it'd suck. You're my best friend. And I, I honestly don't know why you put up with me back then, but I'm really lucky that you did.

Honestly?

[ cass turns to look at her, now. ]

The others were all... family, or teammates, or... trainers. I'd never just... had a friend, before you. You made me feel... normal, even though our lives are...

Edited (ok last one) 2019-05-06 04:02 (UTC)

I know. That's how I felt too. You made all of it feel normal. Or okay? Or not okay, but... not weird. I really don't know. Like the stuff I talk about with you, I couldn't talk about with friends at school. No one would get it. And not that Tim doesn't have his own share of problems, but ours are... yeah.

Yeah. [ it's always felt less alone, with her to talk to. steph understands in a way the others never could. the damage matches in the right ways. ]

I had... when you were gone, after I left for Bludhaven, I made other friends. They didn't... know what I did at night, but... it was good, for a while. Things got... easier. [ none of them could have come close to filling the void stephanie brown left, but she doesn't say that ] And then...

[ she... doesn't finish that sentence. stephanie knows what happened. but... well. the reminder of bludhaven brings up the way cass found out about that. ]

You know, I--saw you, a few times. When I nearly died. [ and once when she actually did, but details! ] Just... seeing things, hearing things, I know, but...

[Steph hugs her knees to her chest.]

I should have been there for you. Really been there.

Wish I could've... been there for you, too.

[ cass reaches out to loop her arms around steph from the side. her voice is quiet, but firm. ]

You know I don't blame you. And you're... here now.

I know. And- [she pauses, not sure if she should share this, but it's Cass] you know what sucks? I used to... I used to see you too. Sometimes you'd cheer me on or tell me good job. But the other times, it wasn't... you. Well obviously, but I mean, you'd- or the you I saw would just say everything I thought to myself. Allllll the bad things. What's funny is you were probably the most supportive person in my life at the time, no, not just probably. You definitely were.

[ that's a lot. and the sincerity of it takes her aback, for a moment, while cass takes in steph's expression, watching her. finally she draws in a deep, shaky breath, moving to pull steph in close. ]

I... know how that feels. But I'm still... and I know you... know this, just--you're amazing, Steph. And I'd never... use any of that, against you.

[ she debates whether she should say more, before finally breathing out a little laugh. ]

Do you know when you--finally won me over?

[Her eyes might be watering up a little? Ooops?

But honestly? Honestly, she doesn't know. She doesn't know why Cass puts up with her, says she's amazing, how she ever won her over. And she also knows this is an invitation to ask, of course, so she'll take the bait. Even if it's still weird/hard having someone say all these nice things about you.]

Prooobably when I called you motormouth, right?

[ she laughs at that. and maybe she reaches out instinctively to wipe at steph's eyes a little, shut up. ]

No, uh--after that. Way after that, I didn't... you were always great, but... When you asked me to train you. And I just... threw you around for an hour, and you said... "same time tomorrow?"

You... didn't give up. You never did. And when I saw that in you, I...

[ yeah. maybe she's tearing up a little too. it's fine? it's. fine. ]

[She goes to wipe away Cass's tears because hey, two can play at this game.]

You were willing to let me try. When I failed, you let me keep going. You wouldn't catch me when I fell, really, and you never held me back. Okay, there's the knocking out bit, but I mean, you didn't go easy on me! And sometimes I definitely wished you would because ow.

So for me, it was that. And uh, when you let me talk about my dad. Like I'm blabbing away and meanwhile you're over there with your trained to be an assassin from birth backstory. And you just... listened. And you never thought bad about me because of it.

[ she closes her eyes, turning to lean her head against steph's shoulder. ]

I'll... be there to catch you now, you know. When it matters.

[ cass has steph's back. and she knows steph has hers. ]

Not if I catch you first! ... which doesn't make any sense, but you get the sentiment.

[She kinda has the urge to nuzzle Cass??? Weird.]

[ god that's so fucking stupid and yet--

cass laughs, staying curled up like that for now. it's fine??? it's fine. ]

Yeah. I got it, Steph.

Edited 2019-05-26 17:26 (UTC)

Good, cause I looked back to the TV for a sec and I think the bats are causing global warming?

[and scene, probably,]

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